Of Sheep and Goats

but Lord, we just didn’t feel led….

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Best Decisions I Ever Made

Posted by Sarai on September 2, 2007

I was in church this morning, and something said in the sermon got me to thinking.  I am sure that is the intent of a sermon – at least that is what the preacher hopes for!   Anyway, I got to thinking about decisions, and how in our life at different times we make pivotal ones.  I thought, if I had to tell a teenager, someone just starting to make their own big decisions, which ones were the best I ever made, what would they be?  And here is what I came up with (not exactly in order) :

  • The decision to follow Christ and let him be King of my life
  • The decision to save myself for my future husband, and to keep myself pure for him
  • The decision to never smoke, drink alcohol or use drugs
  • The decision to marry the man that I did – to submit to him, follow him, and share my life with him
  • The decision to  dress modestly and to present myself to the world in a way that would be pleasing to the Lord and not cause my Brother to stumble

 I know these may not be groundbreaking to some, but I have never regretted any of these decisions, and I am so grateful for the heartache they have prevented.   I believe these decisions were made as a result of the wonderful teaching, instruction and examples I have had before me from birth.   Not everyone I grew up with in our church made the same decisions, and I have seen where it has taken some of them – down a rough road. 

I’ll leave you with this Scripture that I think fits well:   “But Daniel purposed in his heart that he would not defile himself with the portion of the king’s meat, nor with the wine which he drank: therefore he requested of the prince of the eunuchs that he might not defile himself”  – Daniel 1:8

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Getting ready for Heaven

Posted by Sarai on August 21, 2007

While driving down the road today, my 5-year old son observed a tattoo parlor we passed by.  It had been the subject of recent discussion as to what tattoos are, does God like them, why do people get them, etc… He is at that inquisitive age, and sometimes his questions are a challenge!  I do my best to answer them according to what the Bible says about it, but it is his observations that totally take me by surprise sometimes.

Well, this particular tattoo parlor is decorated on their roof line with metal painted design of flames. So my son says to me, “Momma, I think I know why they have fire on their roof at that place”   I replied, “Oh really, why?”    ”Because they are getting ready for Hell!” he said “But I think I am going to be getting ready for Heaven!”

And it just struck me, one of those personal ephiphenys out of the blue – That is every Christian’s goal – getting ready for Heaven.   It is what it is all about.   And if you are serious about going to Heaven, than you are going to want to take as many people as possible with you.  So many times in the day-to-day life as a mother, and all the hats I wear, I can forget at times what my purpose here is.  That this life is only temporal, and only the things we do for Christ will last.   My Uncle sings a song “I’m on my way to heaven, and the journey gets sweeter every day”. It is one of my favorites (well, that and about every other song he sings, writes or plays) and such a good reminder.  

Enjoy the journey, but don’t forget the goal.

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No Quilt

Posted by Sarai on August 13, 2007

It hardly seems like it was just a year ago that she came to stay with us.  Having just been evicted, she was on the verge of homelessness, with nowhere to go.  What really tugged at our hearts was the fact that she had a 2 year old, and was herself in her early 40’s, still recovering from the scars of an abusive relationship.

We had met her for the first time on a Sunday night, and by the next Tuesday, had put her up in a hotel to stay for a week while we got things figured out.  All of the city’s low-income housing had a huge waiting list, and the shelters only let you stay at night. She needed a job and get back on her feet.   So we opened our home.  It was a huge step for us, not knowing how long she needed to stay, but we were willing to do whatever it took for the Lord to work a change in her life.   She got a temp job and I watched her daughter while she was at work. We gave her rides to work, the doctor, to church with us, etc… as she had no car.  She talked of wanting to get some education, maybe a CNA, so she could have a good steady job in the future. We looked into that with her, and laid out for her what it would take to acheive it.   

 In the end, just 2 weeks later, she chose to leave.  We put her back up in an hotel for one more week, and said after that you are on your own.  We did hear from her a little bit after that, and the last I heard, the child was with her grandparents and she was in jail.

It baffled and hurt me when she chose to leave. I just couldn’t understand why. She had nothing – no car, a temp job for one week, no permanent housing, no childcare – how did she think she would make it?  I was depressed for a while afterwards, thinking I should have done something different, that maybe I had failed what God wanted me to do.  My husband told me that we didn’t fail God, through much prayer, we did everything He requested of us regarding her.  She made the choice to not accept it.

After she left, I wrote this illustration regarding how I felt about it all:

Imagine you meet a homeless person who has nothing, not even a blanket.  So you think to get them one. But not just a blanket, something special – a handmade quilt.  You take some time to consider what colors they like best, make it extra warm and sew it all together with years of practice behind you to make it a beautiful quilt. Finally, you go and present this quilt to the homeless person.  But instead of tears of gratitude, you are met with an upturned nose, and a refusal of your gift.  They tell you “No – I don’t need your quilt – I am doing just fine without a blanket at night.  Besides, I can make my own blanket, but first I will have to find some money for the fabric, and then I will need to learn how to sew, but I am just fine – No Thanks!”

More than being sad she didn’t want our help after all, It saddend me that she never fully accepted God’s help – and His help would have made a lasting change. 

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War Next Door

Posted by Sarai on August 11, 2007

I read this excellent article in the newspaper today, and thought I would share it.   I know my city’s crime rate is nowhere near Philidelphia’s, but when you usually have at least 1 shooting a week (that you hear of – there are probably more, but I don’t keep up on the police reports) it is enough!   As sadening as it is to me, I think sometimes how it pains God to see all this happen.  

Enjoy -

War is war, whether it’s Iraq or Philly


PHILADELPHIA — I didn’t hear the cars screech to a halt, but one of the trauma nurses did. He ran outside with two emergency department medics to find several people in a car, all of their clothes soaked with blood. The passengers were screaming for someone to help the young man in the front seat, who was unresponsive. The team threw the limp victim onto a gurney, one of several that stand waiting for these types of scenarios, which occur almost nightly at our trauma center.

As the gurney rolled in, I saw a lifeless young man with more gunshot wounds than I could count. I was poised to start a resuscitation effort when a voice behind me announced that three more were coming in. As the team started CPR and checked for cardiac activity, the second and third victims were wheeled in.


A young girl had
a gunshot wound to the abdomen that made her writhe in pain. Her movements were slow and her mental functioning impaired, signaling to me that she was in profound shock — she was dying. I caught only a passing glance of the third patient, who had a gunshot wound to the neck and was coughing up blood. Those brief images were enough for me to sum up a desperate situation; I pronounced the first patient dead to concentrate resources on the other critically injured.
The nursing staff rolled the dead man’s body into a bed and readied the stall for the fourth patient, who had three gunshot wounds to the right arm and two to the left. With the emergency medicine physicians, surgery residents and medics working on the two critical patients, I assigned the fourth patient to a capable medical student who courageously accepted the battlefield promotion to intern.

In the swirl of screams and moving figures, my mind drifted to my recent experience in Iraq as an Army surgeon. There we dealt regularly with “mascals,” or mass-casualty situations. In Iraq, ironically, I found myself drawing on my experience as a civilian trauma surgeon each time mascals would overrun the combat hospital. As nine or 10 patients from a firefight rolled in, I sometimes caught myself saying “just like another Friday night in West Philadelphia.”

The wounds and nationalities of the patients are different, but the feelings of helplessness, despair and loss are the same. In Iraq, soldiers die for freedom, for honor, for their country and their buddies. Here in Philadelphia, civilians die without honor, without purpose, for no country, for no one.


More young men are killed
each day on the streets of America than on the worst days of carnage and loss in Iraq. There is a war at home raging every day, filling our trauma centers with so many wounded children that it sometimes makes Baghdad seem like a quiet city in Iowa.

Unlike the Iraq conflict, this war is not on the front pages of America’s newspapers or on CNN. You have heard of the Washington-area sniper shootings and the massacre at Virginia Tech. I am sure you have not heard about the “Lex Street massacre,” in which 10 people ages 15 to 56 were lined up and shot, execution-style, in the winter of 2000. Seven were killed, three critically injured.

You haven’t heard about this tragedy because it happened to inner-city poor people in a crack house in Philadelphia. Imagine, for a moment, if this had occurred in a suburban shopping mall or if a Marine unit in Iraq had been involved. There would be shock, outrage, 24-hour news coverage, Senate hearings, a new color of ribbon to wear. That double standard, that triage of compassion and empathy, is why the war on the streets continues unabated.

I am on call Wednesday. The statistics indicate that that night I will once again walk with the chaplain to a small room off the emergency room. I will open a heavy brown door and make eye contact with a room full of people; a mother, perhaps a father or a grandmother. They will look at me with tears welling up, their knees weak, and lean forward while watching my lips, bracing for news about their loved one. I will remain standing and reach out to hold the mother’s hand. My announcement will be short and firm, the tone and intonation polished from years of practice.

The words will be simple for me to say, but sharp as a sword for them to hear; “I am sorry, your son has died.”

John P. Pryor directs the trauma program at the Hospital of the University of Pennsylvania in Philadelphia.

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Jane Austen has competition…

Posted by Sarai on July 18, 2007

I have always been an Austen fan. Read her entire works, watched all of the movies I could find(the British-made ones always seemed better) and used to quote her with friends when I was a teenager.   She does set the bar pretty high, so I was pleasantly surprised recently to find another author that actually comes close in that arena.

Her name is Elizabeth Gaskell.  She was born about 6 years before Jane Austen passed away.  I have not read any of her works yet, but it is on my next library to-do list.  But I have watched two of her books made into a BBC miniseries – “Wives and Daughters” and “North and South”. Both were excellent and worth watching again. 

So if you are an Austen fan, I can guarantee you will enjoy Elizabeth Gaskell.  Cheerio!

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And so I begin…

Posted by Sarai on July 17, 2007

About 5 years ago I discovered the wonderful world of blogging. Always an avid reader, never a blogger. So now I finally take the plunge and begin.  I have been so encouraged and challenged by many of the blogs I read, and hold a faint hope that someday, someone might feel that way about my blog.  And after all, with so many marvelous thoughts and ideas rattling around in my brain – why keep them to myself? Why not share them?  I am glad you stopped by!

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